By Rosie Harper
how many days will it take
to get over that one day
and when exactly
is everything supposed to stop reminding me of you?
when does every lyric stop hurting
and will every song always be written by you?
October was sadder than September
but if I lost you in August, why was that true?
will you forgive me
for all of the memories we didn’t make
and could you give me back the pieces of my grandmother
that are buried in your grave?
will sunny days always make me cry
because the happiness is missing you
and I can’t help but wonder
do you grieve for me too?
is it ok if I don’t believe in myself
now that I’ve lost my biggest fan
is it ok if I miss the friend I had
while I was holding your hand?
if I could see you one more time
do you know what I would say?
and if you’re not here
how is any of this ever, ever supposed to be ok?
can it please stop hurting
but will you forgive me if it does
what if the pain is comfort
and everything, everything is just love
“And when I turned to face grief, I saw that it was just love in a heavy coat.”
-Shannon Barry